patience

You can already tell Aiden and Sky have bonded. He makes her laugh and she indulges him with her undivided attention. He performs for her constantly - jumping off the couch, standing upside down, making funny faces, rubbing food all over his face, singing, dancing and otherwise just being silly. I have to say, when I'm really busy, its nice to have Aiden entertain her (also keeps him out of trouble)...but then sometimes I hear Sky squealing and I know her patience has worn thin.

Little Sky hasn't been feeling well. She has had a very bad cold so she is super congested. She has the hardest time at night because laying flat doesn't let the mucus drain. Last night she and I sat in my closet for a couple of hours so that she could get some time sitting upright without waking up daddy and Aiden.

I really have a hard time with either of the kids are sick. It really just breaks my heart to see them struggle with breathing and not know how to clear their nose or throat. I've been using a bulb syringe and that helps a little (especially if Adam does it because I'm too much of a wimp to really put it up her nose). I could sit up all night watching her and making sure she's breathing comfortably.

Someone sent me the following poem via email and I really think it's right on so I'm posting it here even though, I don't like to post other people's work on my blog but I'll make an exception for this one:

Before I was a Mom,
I never tripped over toys
or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not
my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind
and my thoughts.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held down a screaming child
so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night
watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held a sleeping baby just because
I didn't want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small
could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom,
I didn't know the feeling of
having my heart outside my body...
I didn't know how special it could feel
to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night
every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth,
the joy,
the love,
the heartache,
the wonderment
or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much,
before I was a Mom .

-- unknown

I LOVE being Aiden and Sky's Mom. I don't know what I've done in my life that was so good that god gave me these two perfect little people to love and take care of...